an update.

well i have been in school for almost a week...kinda. We got off to a rough start but hopefully it will only get better. My teacher seems pretty nice..kinda weird but oh well. I'm just ready to start learning how to do everything. and i guess i am starting to..i`ve done 15 pages worth of key terms, chapter reviews, wrote a paper, and there is a test on Monday. so yea i guess I'm learning its just going very slow. But I'm not really the biggest fan of just coming and sitting. my teacher only stays till 12:30 so that's kind of annoying and the girl I'm suppose to be doing this with never ever comes and the gay guy in my class is so freaking annoying because he comes in high everyday. but anyways ill stop being negative about it i just had to vent for a second.

now work...work is getting better. slowly but surly. i came to the realization that the reason i was hating it was because i had a horrible attitude about it and was expecting it to be the worst. So i have now decided that i am going to try my best to be positive about it and expect it to go good. I really do have some cute kids. Emma wants to be my little helper, Ashton is...oh my word..a handful to say the lest. i actually had to chase me around the church the other day. Gloria always wants to know whats going on and makes friends with everyone. Johnathan loves to love. Nathaniel is precious but can get into some trouble if he wants. Kyliegh never ever talks. Katylin is so cute. Taylor..he never wants to listen but if you put him in charge of something he will make sure its done. The other day he actually gave me this picture of hearts and smiley faces that he drew in art..i thought it was sweet until he asked if he could have it back right when he left... Rusty makes me want to scream but he can have his precious moments..i think. i haven't seen one yet but i know their there. Jasia minds me which i love. Wyatt is so stinkin polite. every little boy should act like him. Micahel is one that I'm learning how to love. and then there is Micah. he is by far my favorite one. he is precious and so cute and is so excited to see me every single day. he just might be the reason i go to work everyday. just kidding....kinda.

But no matter how good or bad work and school might be life is good. I went walking on the greenway a few nights ago with Alex and had a wonderful time. We talked about Jesus a lot and i loved it! He encouraged me and challenged me in so many ways and he doesn't even know he did. but once he reads this he will. so Alex, i thank you :).

I heard a song on the radio a few days ago and it said something about deep calls to deep. and you can imagine that i got super excited but the sad news is that i don't know the name of the song, who sings it, or any other words from the song. boo. Jesus is continuing to draw himself closer to me and taking me deeper. and i am loving it. I was looking over my journal from this past summer and i found a quote that i love "you determine the depth of your relationship with Jesus" how true is that! i mean yes Jesus is always right here wanting to pursue us, love us, and care for us but you first have to let him in. he isn't going to make you do anything. its your choice. i don't know if that makes any sense but friends my challenge to you today is to invite Jesus into your thoughts today and let him pursue you because that's exactly what he wants to do. I am continuing to fall more in love with him and that makes me so excited and places a peace upon my heart.

I was talking to my sister n law the last night and she said something along the lines of..."i am so proud of you. you have so much going on and still have time to date." it made me laugh but i thought it was so true. everything new is hitting me all at once. but it doesn't feel like I'm that busy. I guess that shows that Jesus has been alive and real to be over the past month. but any who i replied with..."well i mean...i don't hate it. and by it i mean the dating part :)"

-jordan katlin.