a kindergartner.

well as i sit here at school i keep thinking a lot about if this is really what i want to do. i know that me and this school have got off to a rough start and certainly makes me want to just forget about this whole thing but then again i know that i just cant do that. i kinda feel like I'm settling but then again i don't. there are so many thoughts going on in my head about it and it kinda makes me stressed and frustrated but that is also a good thing because now all i know to do about it is pray. I know God will lead me in the right direction. He is here and he will always will be. He will never leave me or forsake me. Thank you Jesus :)

So recently i have felt like a kindergartner in my spiritual walk. now don't go off and judge me just yet. i got some good stuff here. I say that because everything that has been pushing me, encouraging me, and helping me grow is stuff that i have known forever. I think I'm just realizing it in a new way. Like for example... Jesus you are good. yes we all know that but truly think for just a second of how good God really is. He lavishes his grace and mercy upon us everyday His love for us is so big. you cant even comprehend it. The same God that hung the moon and stars, that painted the grass green, who knows how many hairs you have on your head,who gave life its name, and knows your last breath even before you breath it. yea him...he loves you. and see i have grown up my whole life knowing those two very simple facts. I remember running around the house singing with my dad " God is good...all the time..in the darkest night his light will shine..yes God is good...he`s so good..alllllll thhhe timmmme" and of course the Jesus loves me song. but i never realized just how big his goodness and love really is. so let that be my challenge to you today.

also... we had an awesome bible study the other night at miss Lauren Curry's house..along with some really good cheese dip and puppy chow :) we were talking about how we have power in Jesus name and we can claim that! wow i wish you guys could have been there because it made me so so so excited! there is power in Jesus name and all we have to do is claim that and have faith...as small as a mustard seed and my God can move a mountain. yea he is that good. and i think it is an honor to worship him.

last night at church we had a really good worship service. Ryan lead worship, and Adam and Justin spoke. they all did a really good job. one thing that stuck out to me the most was a quote by Justin. he said this " god is only emptying you so you can give you more" i liked that a lot! we all go through tough times where we feel drained and empty and wondering why we aren't on fire for Jesus and things like that but really, if we would only look at little deeper and wait just a tad bit longer we would realize that he has something big and grand for us and in order for him to give us this big, wonderful and great thing he first has to empty us. Now knowing this doesn't make it any easier to go through. i hate when i feel far from God but i do thing knowing this helps me to have more faith and trust in Jesus more which we all need to pray we get better at. so that just a word of encouragement for ya. have a beautiful day :)

-jordan katlin